Breaking Point

I don't want to go anywhere...
I don't want to do anything...
I don't want to study anything...
I don't want to go class anymore...
I don't want to borrow car from anyone...

I don't know what i should do...
I don't know where i should go...
I don't know why i am like this...
I don't know what am i doing...
I don't know why my life is like this...

Strong outside, weak inside...
Smile on the face, Tears inside the heart...

So be it....

Facing so many dark clouds, I have decided...

Not to care so much about other people reaction, walk with me or Fuck off...

Not to ask for so much anymore. If you want, you give. Going to save my saliva for better things...

Not to tolerate anymore, enough is enough. Faking 2 face, snake tongue don't test my patience...

Not to please everyone anymore. I am not the one you are praying to, for what waste my effort pleasing you...

Not to hide anything anymore. What i feel inside me, you will see it on my face or taste it...

Not to act strong and smile anymore. Being optimistic is good, it's time to draw a line on it...

I am exhausted, tired, sick of my life, reaching my limit...
It's time to left some for myself, become a human being...
Sun is not shining anymore, only dark clouds, waiting for a heavy long downpour...

Life's good

Life like this is just too nice... Can it be worst than this? Lets recap September... Miss out a holiday trip, lost a toenail, sprain my ankle, car accident, assignment pilling up, dealing with some SOTB... So many freaking dark clouds, i wonder if there is any silver lining in it...

Tired of seeing every plan messed up
Tired of trying to pleasing everyone
Tired of being stressed out everyday
Tired of being optimistic

I wonder when will i reach my limit...
Maybe i reach already, just didn't realize it...

Song for You...

Miranda Cosgrove- Kissing You

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Wall's up, made sure
I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
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I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Blessing in Disguise?

Holidays is just around the corner, a long waited one. Kinda happy because mine started earlier. Thought of staying at my Kajang house and start enjoying my holiday. But, I have decided to go back Sitiawan and give my parents a shock.. xD Nah, it's just that my stupid noob phone no battery and I went back home without letting my mom knows. Anyway, reach Sitiawan and nothing change much, still so lovely...

All hell break loose when i have decided to go play futsal with my friends, everytime hang out in cyber cafe, so boring... :0 Reach the futsal court, played for about 5 minutes, then somehow i fall down and sprain my ankle... :( Just a sprained ankle, and furthermore i only play for 5 minutes, with this "act tough" thought on my mind, i brace myself and continue kicking the ball. After sometime, i accidentally kicked my friend's leg. He is not wearing any shoe, but i am wearing and i am the one who feel the pain... Ya, pain on my toenail... Last time in PD also the same, i kicked my friend's leg, but in the end i hurt my leg, and spent some "wonderful" with the doctor...

I wonder who paint my toenail purple... The damm ball? The stupid lousy shoe? Or my leg? Anyway, now it is turning black, and the blood keep pressuring my nails from inside. Don't know how to describe it. Just imagine every few seconds, some crazy people trying to pull off your nails, then you will know how i feel. And thanks to my ankle, there are tons of blood stuck there, that means more pain to my toenails. First time see my body part "working" together to give me pain...x.X

Besides of giving me lots of pain, both of them also give me longer a stay in my house, cant see my dear for longer time, give me "fly a big aeroplane"...
Haix, the only thing that comes from it is i just get my car. Perhaps getting it and driving it is 2 different thing... Just hope that my ankle and my toenail will be back from holiday real soon... :)

Silver Screen..

Movies that we have watched together...
1. Salt
2. The Last Air Bender
3. Twilight: Eclipse
4. The Expendables
5. Love in Disguise
6. Resident Evil
7. The Stool Pigeon
8. Legend of the Fist
9. The Other Guys
10. R.E.D
11. The Rite
12. Faster
13. Great Day
14. All Well End Wells 2010
15. Season of The Witch
16. The Mechanic

Those moments will always be become our sweetest memories, moments that we cherish together and enjoy each others company...

Let the flight begins... :)

Just for you

Never Alone...

Lady Antebellum-Never Alone
Feat. Jim Brickman

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
May you always have plenty
Your glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well, I have to be honest
As much as I want it
I'm not gonna promise the cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fear surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fear surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

That's my promise... :)

A.S Trip 2

Your Password

Sigh...

Dreams are nice to have, but achieving it is not easy.
If you want that dreams so badly, will you do anything that will destroy your dreams?

Chance and opportunity won't come knocking on your door.
When it comes knocking loudly on your door, you can do anything else except opening the door.

Impatience will led to your failure of getting your prey.
But keeps on waiting for your prey to come doesn't always work, going out to hunt does.

Arrogance is ones show of power and capability.
But not showing your capability and power is not a way to show modesty.

Fear exists within everyone of us, overcome it and you will become stronger.
You said you will be brave. When it is time to face your fear, you choose to escape from it.

Escape is sometimes is a wiser choice to make, if you can't win.
But always escaping doesn't make your chances of winning higher.

Never ever give up sounds determine, making it to sound louder is a different story.
Shouting will only become whisper in the wind if you don't make your voice echoes.


Instead of looking into the mirror and complaining how ugly you are and how much you hate yourself, start doing something before you become rotten, apple!

No one but me...

You once said that you want to change...
You want to become stronger...
You want to become better...
You made promises and vows...
You made sacrifices...
You give everything that you have...

But why is it at every crucial moment,
You fail to do the right thing?
You fail to become the right person?
You fail to do the right choice?

And,
You make others disappointed...
You let others down...

There is no one to blame but You,
for being weak,
for being egoistic,
for wasting time,
for thinking too much,
for caring what others think of You,

Is it too late to change?
Is it too late to improve?
Is it too late to apologize?

International Language

There is one language that everyone knows, everyone speaks.
It is speak by using a finger, the middle finger... o0o _I_ m[]m
Finger speaks a thousand words... :)

Monkey Business...

Eat your banana...

All In!

It's all or nothing,
It's do or die,
It's hero or zero.

That 1 place...

It has start working since you are not born.
It is a place where the strongest muscle grows.
It is a place where you keep someone precious.
It is a place where you feel the most happiness from.
It is place where all shining smile comes from.
It is the warmest place that you can find.

It is called Heart...
It contains everything that make this world a beautiful place...
Love, Trust, Promises, Laughter,Hope...

People said it is a fragile place,made of a glass, easily broken.
It is a place where tears will not stop flowing.
It is place where its wounds will never heal.
It is a place where contains the pain that nobody can endure.
It is the last place where you want it to be hurt.

No, i wont let this place to disappeared, destroyed.
As it it the one and only place that i will hold on to till the world ends.
As you are already inside it...

A place so called home?

Locked

One Time

Aye aye aye aye aye aye aye aye

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

When I met you girl my heart went knock knock

Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop

And even though its a struggle love is all we got

Ao we gon’ keep keep climbin’ till the mountain top

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart (and now I’ve got my)

One love

My one heart

My one life for sure

Lemme tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

And I’ma be your one guy

You’ll be my number one girl

Always makin time for you

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

You look so deep

You know that it humbles me,

Your by my side and troubles them don’t trouble me

Many have called but the chosen Is you

Whatever you want shawty I’ll give it to you

Your world is my world

And my fight is your fight

My breath is your breath

And your heart (and now I’ve got my)

One love

My one heart

My one life for sure

Lemme tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

And I’ma be your one guy

You’ll be my number one girl

Always makin time for you

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

Shawty right there

She’s got everything I need

and I’m gon’ tell her one time (one time)

Give you everything you need

Down to my last dime

She makes me happy

I know where I’ll be

Right by your side cause

She is the one

One love

My one heart

My one life for sure

Lemme tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

And I’ma be your one guy

You’ll be my number one girl

Always makin time for you

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

I’ma tell you one time

(girl I love, girl I love you)

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

Me plus you (I’ma tell you one time)

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