Have you ever feel like want to cry but cant cry out?
Have you ever feel like sharing your thoughts but there is no one there?
Have you ever thought of what happen when you lose everything?
Have you ever thought of what happen when you suddenly disappear?

Why my tears aren't rolling down?
Why my lips are tight?
Why my eyes see something that shouldn't be seen?
Why my heart beats so fast?

I am sorry for failing my grades again
I am sorry for not treating you better
I am sorry for being selfish
I am sorry for being ignorant
I am sorry for being weak
I am sorry for not driving safely
I am sorry for not being there
I am sorry for hurting you
I am sorry for being a jerk
I am sorry for not understanding
I am sorry for lying
I am sorry for escaping
I am sorry for making you cry
I am sorry for not improving
I am sorry for breaking my promises
I am sorry for being childish
I am sorry for not changing
I am sorry for not grateful
I am sorry for taking things for granted
I am sorry for everything that i had done
I am sorry for everything that i hadn't done

Happy...

I wanna be
next to you
and watch you while you sleep

holding you
lost inside
every breath you breathe

i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy


one minute more
a thousand years
it's all the same to me

cause i'm incomplete
and i need you more
with every breath i breathe

i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy

i try to let you know
but my words get tangled up
and every time i find that i'm
outside looking in

can't let this moment go
when you're the only one
that makes me feel the way i feel inside

lately i'm falling for you
lately i'm falling for you

i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy
i dont wanna live a day without you
i just wanna be the one that makes you happy, happy

Breaking Point

I don't want to go anywhere...
I don't want to do anything...
I don't want to study anything...
I don't want to go class anymore...
I don't want to borrow car from anyone...

I don't know what i should do...
I don't know where i should go...
I don't know why i am like this...
I don't know what am i doing...
I don't know why my life is like this...

Strong outside, weak inside...
Smile on the face, Tears inside the heart...

So be it....

Facing so many dark clouds, I have decided...

Not to care so much about other people reaction, walk with me or Fuck off...

Not to ask for so much anymore. If you want, you give. Going to save my saliva for better things...

Not to tolerate anymore, enough is enough. Faking 2 face, snake tongue don't test my patience...

Not to please everyone anymore. I am not the one you are praying to, for what waste my effort pleasing you...

Not to hide anything anymore. What i feel inside me, you will see it on my face or taste it...

Not to act strong and smile anymore. Being optimistic is good, it's time to draw a line on it...

I am exhausted, tired, sick of my life, reaching my limit...
It's time to left some for myself, become a human being...
Sun is not shining anymore, only dark clouds, waiting for a heavy long downpour...

Life's good

Life like this is just too nice... Can it be worst than this? Lets recap September... Miss out a holiday trip, lost a toenail, sprain my ankle, car accident, assignment pilling up, dealing with some SOTB... So many freaking dark clouds, i wonder if there is any silver lining in it...

Tired of seeing every plan messed up
Tired of trying to pleasing everyone
Tired of being stressed out everyday
Tired of being optimistic

I wonder when will i reach my limit...
Maybe i reach already, just didn't realize it...

Song for You...

Miranda Cosgrove- Kissing You

Sparks fly
It's like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there's
No where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I've never seen

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Wall's up, made sure
I guarded my heart
And I promise I wouldn't do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

'Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
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I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it's love

Cause when I'm kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I've been trying to find
Falls right into place
You're all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I'm kissing you

When I'm kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I'm kissing you

Blessing in Disguise?

Holidays is just around the corner, a long waited one. Kinda happy because mine started earlier. Thought of staying at my Kajang house and start enjoying my holiday. But, I have decided to go back Sitiawan and give my parents a shock.. xD Nah, it's just that my stupid noob phone no battery and I went back home without letting my mom knows. Anyway, reach Sitiawan and nothing change much, still so lovely...

All hell break loose when i have decided to go play futsal with my friends, everytime hang out in cyber cafe, so boring... :0 Reach the futsal court, played for about 5 minutes, then somehow i fall down and sprain my ankle... :( Just a sprained ankle, and furthermore i only play for 5 minutes, with this "act tough" thought on my mind, i brace myself and continue kicking the ball. After sometime, i accidentally kicked my friend's leg. He is not wearing any shoe, but i am wearing and i am the one who feel the pain... Ya, pain on my toenail... Last time in PD also the same, i kicked my friend's leg, but in the end i hurt my leg, and spent some "wonderful" with the doctor...

I wonder who paint my toenail purple... The damm ball? The stupid lousy shoe? Or my leg? Anyway, now it is turning black, and the blood keep pressuring my nails from inside. Don't know how to describe it. Just imagine every few seconds, some crazy people trying to pull off your nails, then you will know how i feel. And thanks to my ankle, there are tons of blood stuck there, that means more pain to my toenails. First time see my body part "working" together to give me pain...x.X

Besides of giving me lots of pain, both of them also give me longer a stay in my house, cant see my dear for longer time, give me "fly a big aeroplane"...
Haix, the only thing that comes from it is i just get my car. Perhaps getting it and driving it is 2 different thing... Just hope that my ankle and my toenail will be back from holiday real soon... :)